March 1995
Our first ultrasound picture: your dad carried it around in his wallet for a while.
It’s A GIRL! Your dad is so excited. For me I wanted a boy first. I am not sure why. Maybe it is because I can barely handle my own emotions, so the thought of handling the “up and down” emotions of other girl seems overwhelming. It will be nice to have a little girl. I am sure there is a reason why Heavenly Father thinks that I need a little girl first.
Letters To Maddie 
did you keep a journal?